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Day 267: My mind and I

A conversation within myself led me to compose this poem. It started off as a declaration of self wishing for certain things and then, the 'other' me was reasoning with 'me' about those peculiar wishes. This poem reflects the longing and the search for 'someone' or 'something'.

In between the other 'me' got stuck half way as 'she' was finding it hard to tell the 'me' to be positive. Thankfully a conversation with my dear sister-in-law helped the 'other me' find her way. I should thank her for helping me write this one. Dedicated to her for her beautiful mind.

Image Courtesy: Google Images
Not an appropriate image for this poem's tone but found this funny. 

I wish to run away from here,  to a place nowhere. 
I hope to fly away like a butterfly, chasing new flowers of the wild. 
I wish to sit down quiet, mindfully traveling through a million path
I hope to go to a distant land just by teleporting my good old soul. 

She paused me and asked, 
"Oh, dear friend, why are your wishes so vicious and sad? "
"Or, are they just a brilliant blast of your thoughts?". 
I nodded and smiled, then closed my eyes, 
for I know not, my friend, not just yet, 
as they are still only wishes from deep down my heart. 

She gave me a quizzical look, sat down, and looked about, 
Then asked me to annotate the pain of why it was so hard to stick around. 
It was tough to elaborate that thought, 
of how I felt at times like a wind that was directionless and lost, 
wading through the rough seas and a leafless tree, 
I felt like an abandoned soul trying to see far. 
It was hard to illustrate the troubled soul,  
who was trying to just find a road. 
She looked at me with a soft smile and nod, 
agreeing that it was typical to feel all so lost. 
She agreed that I was lonely and missed good company, 
looking for a purpose to live and then to smile. 

Then she told me something that changed my thought. 
She asked me to smile no matter what, 
even when I am lonely and sad. 
Just to get my muscles moving up and right. 
To let that smile kill my unwarranted blues,
She told me to let go off the parts that didn't belong to me, 
To walk out of the dark and look up at the sun. 
She made sense more than I ever knew, 
She planted seeds of positivity, 
of hope, love, and joy in me, 
for now, I am a different person
waiting to bloom. 

I still wish I can run away to a distant place, 
but that is not in pain but in joy spreading my wings, 
I still wish I can become a butterfly looking for new flowers to hide,
but that is not in strain and only in joy as I take flight to a beautiful land. 

©Meena Arvind

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