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Writing this letter sounds very weird. As I am 'you' but just different. Writing a letter to yourself much younger is kind of strange yet interesting feeling. I have now travelled a long way. In numbers it may not be much, but in experience, a long long way for sure. Now, as I stand and look back at you, my younger self there are millions of thoughts that go through my mind.
You were a very vibrant person then. I do not know where you have lost that today. I do not see that in me. You were like any other teenager. Studies, yeah. But so were your interests thrown around. Lost in the huge bubble called future. Your identity was based on the approvals around you. Your identity was based on your ideals of your best friends. Peer pressure? Well, not really. That you weren't and you never have. However, the identity that you shaped for yourself was based on approval and not your own acceptance of who you were/are. I am not elaborating it here as 'you' can relate to it and understand the actual context here.
As for friends and people, I am proud that you were able to make some wonderful friends but if it were in my 'today's experience' I would have told you to not worry about any of that much and never take those seriously as these evolve. As you see today, the world is completely different and connections evolve. What you need to remember is just those old lessons and memories never stay intact. Trust me when I say I miss a few pages here and there.
I also think you should have followed your passion and fought the bubble just like how you thought in your mind. Yes, I understand you were working around a few constraints but you should have listened to that inner voice of questioning the status quo. You should have gone deeper in search of some of those questions you wanted to know. Yes, no use of crying over the spilled milk but this letter is a reminder about what you can do from today. Times have flown by as though in a blink of an eye. The bucket list is still not ticked off. There is a lot to do and sometimes it looks like we are on a spinning wheel. The journey so far has shaped the 'me' of today. Thank you for that. Thanks for those lessons that you missed, the lessons you learnt, the giggles you had, tears you shed. One less from the karma of life.
On that note, I am writing to myself : Enjoy your time now for the future is always going to be unpredictable. Learn more today and just do what you love....
P.S. Hopefully the next letter my future self writes to the 'me' of today reads more matured and interesting.